Today, as usual, i went to the Children's Society...oh, and i din see DERICK and LIWEN who is usually under me.. Angel and a few others were also not there as well... i think they were brought back by their parents for the weekend already.. i hope they are there, at the home, so that i can teach and play with them whenever i come, but, haiz... i cannot be too selfish because i think they should feel much happier once they are at home because they feel more loved with their parents.. hopefully, it's like that, if not, i will give them a good bashing and present them with several tight slaps, man! i hate parents who shirk their responsibilty after giving birth to the child.. it's really extremely unfair for the child.. haiz, i really pity them a lot.. that's y i showed lots of patience to them when i'm with them.. which is SUPER SUPER not like me.. with my ExTREMEly impatient character.. haha... maybe, i knew i was doing a voluntary job, so i have gotta control my disgusting temper bah.. haha!!

Well, but the caretakers of the children's society reassigned me to another kid, KELVIN.. Haha, he's one cute and good-looking boy, man!! (* same as my previous one.. derick!) i love him so so so much! he was also very obedient.. then, as i was happily teaching him how to write all those chinese words, my aunt said, "hey, zhu jie yi! you teach my kid instead.. i dunno how to teach him hanyu pinyin and english!!!" argh, of cos, i would have to switch with her.. obviously, to please my aunt la... wah, that boy, namely Zhi hui... wah, almost made me rushed out the room and run back in, smashing the wooden door and jump onto the top of the table and shout at the top of my lungs, man!! argh!!!! His attention span is super super short! i just merely went thru with him two questions, then he started not to pay attention already.. he started laughing and saying bullshit this, bullshit that.. wah.. i almost shouted at him ar.. but i din la, to maintain my gentle and kind image as what all those kids perceived me to be.. haha! nah, i'm not trying to boast but i can really see they liked me a lot, cos when i came, all those kids would jump onto me like a koala bear (like as though, a walking tree arrived..) and shouted, "chae chae, chae chae!!!" haha! rather difficult to calm them down la, but still i loved it.. i feel really appreciated when i'm with them... in simple words, i just loved them too much that i want to bring all of them home!!!!! but, some of them are malays and indians leh.. i dunno what are their cultural practices and so.. but heck, who cares? i love them and i want them to be at home with me!!! but ar, taking care of them is really a very tiring job la, i can't possibly bring all of them home 1.. there are so many of them leh, i think there's more than 50 lor.. but, i dun meet all the children from the home, because some of them would be brought back by their parents liao..... oh no! i dunno what to write liao.. so, i got to end off here.. Bye!

(lookin forward to my next trip to the home!)

I'm sOOOOOOoo SICK! dun wanna say why.. it's really tiring to say it out..

argh... i failed my geography test yesterday! Why do i always fail my geog tests ar? Dunno what's wrong with me leh.. haiz... stupid leh... these few days, i have been feeling so tired and unmotivated to do anything especially studying... so sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dunno why nobody can understand me, in this world!! i feel like dyingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i'm very disappointed and unhappy over certain things.. firstly, it's over friendship and secondly about ...

Everytime, i will try my best to hide my feelings when u all made my blood boil, but at home, i will have to bear with it all alone! i'm so sick of this routine! And, the thing is, i have to put up a show in front of everybody in school or else, i will be condemned forever... i don't want that! arrgh..

if u don't like me/feel insecure with me/unhappy to be with me, just tell me straight, i really hate ppl who still continued to be with me despite their deep hatred in me.. and the best part is, u show me no respect at all, give me all ur disgusting crap, leave me aside at the corner and expect me to take them in silence.. then, out of a sudden, u treat me so well as if i'm ur best soulmate ever.. U make me feel so happy at one time, then the next minute, u treat me like dirt!! I told myself all the time, aiya, u are just feeling unhappy and moody at this moment la, that's y u are venting ur frustration to me now.. u should be ok later... But, this can't continue forever!!!! zzzzzzzzzz....................

Secondly, actually, i'm in quite a fix.. i actually fell for two guys since the middle of last year.. one of them graduated from school just recently and i just saw him yesterday, wah! he was so cute! haha! and he left me good memories... he makes me laugh whenever i look at him and i'm able to talk to him very comfortably and happily.. then, when i'm with him, i feel like i'm the luckiest girl on Earth.. The days i've spent with him were truly the happiest of my life.. maybe that's because it's the first time i had a serious crush on someone? well, but sadly, i can't have those days anymore... he has graduated already.. and he got really good results which i felt really proud of! i wish u all the best in your future.. the second one was the "newer" one.. i just liked him not too long ago.. as compared to the first guy which lasted for 3 years.. this one is really new.. he's funny, he makes me laugh and makes me go gaga over him sometimes, but recently, we lost contact suddenly.. so, i din think much of him.. and gave up all this crushing thing on him, but then, a few days ago, i came across pictures of him and i saw girls beside him in every one, furthermore, behaving in a rather intimate way.. omG! i felt like a stupid moron... yea, i know i shouldn't be thinking of love at such a young age.. but, it's like really disheartening to see such pics, i felt like crying! but hell no, i'm so NOT crying for a guy, man.. hell NOOO! well, think i should stop all these crap, it's seriously getting nowhere..so, i should concentrate on my studies instead.. zzzzz...

Ok, i will just bear with this for once more.. and that's the last chance, man! if it's going to be like that again, i will not blog again!! argh, it's really making me go bonkers! roar!! i want to bite someone's head off!!!! arGHhh!!!!!!

Wah, really can't calm down now, but what to do? life still have to go on.. oK!!! Yesterday was the release of the O level results.. ya, and i got B3 for my Math! WA, i was super duper overjoyed!!! I expected myself to fail or maybe just a mere pass for that because i didn't complete the whole of section B!! Well, that's because i didn't manage my time well.. I kept checking those questions I've completed to prevent myself from making any stupid and careless mistakes like i always do.. but this time, i've forgotten about managing my time efficiently, wah DUI leh! But heck, i still got B3!! haaha! But i will still retake my paper even if i get an A2.. i must score an A1 for my math, no matter what.. because that's my strongest area, as compared to.. erm.. every other subjects?? oh no! except accounts! I guess i'm those mathematical kind of person.. haha! Cos, i got A1 for my Math and Accounts for my N levels last year, and the others were all A2s.. So disgusting results indeed.. i should have scored one more A1 and then, i can have a 3 pointer already! yucks! but never mind la.. at least, in my L1R4 and L1R5, i got 8 and 10 points respectively.. still not too bad.. oh, in addition, i did my targets setting yesterday and i hope i can achieve them successfully! One year later, i will know by then... All the Best, KitYee!! Jia You!

This stupid blog is really driving me crazy!! The longest post of my life was deleted suddenly, ARGH!!!!! Why do i always have such experiences? In the past, my previous blog was also like that... being deleted! STUPIDDDDDDDDDDDDD! Don't know whether i should continue blogging or not leh!!