i'm soo foolish.. i'm soo stupid.. why can't i just channel all the energy t e right place? n stop brooding over stupidd things.. i dunno wat i'm thinking.. i seem t have a vvvvvv negative mindset.. everything that goes thru my mind seems t be extremely negative.. why am i like tt? i've told myself a few thousand times, i would really die v quickly if i continue t b such a pessimist.. everybody is having so much fun.. but y m i suffering? y shd i suffer? can't i change myself, so tt i can live happier.. dun take everything t be so complicated n disgusting.. things are just as fine as it is.. hais, how i wish i can change as and when i like.. but i'm a human being, not a robot..
i feeel so loost.. i feel like i'm e only person left in this world.. it seems like nth in this world is meaningful enough for me t carry on w my life.. i can actually just die anytime. in fact..i can die now.. hais, nooooooo, can u stop thinking liddat, CHOO KIT YEE!? hais.. i have my beloved family.. i can't just kill myself lo, stop being so damn selfish, can or not?! u have a perfectly normal life... u are not handicapped, u dun have a shit on ur face, u can eat, sing, swim, run and laugh, so y are u torturing urself liddat! SO SELFISH N FOOLISH! Arghh.. i dunno what i'm thinking, now, i'm scolding myself? when i shd actually treasure my life n love myself? why am i liddat????????????????????? i have a strong urge of killing myself.. but i know i shdn't be so stupid... killing myself doesn't solve anything at all! i must be strong......arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh............................................................................................................................

jus read a meaningful email.. here it is...

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine.

Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.

wah sian sian.. slept for an afternoon today! gonna b a pig real sn!! nooo! i'm alr a pig now! UHH ZHU!!!!!!

Oh ya! bad news.. My aunt n my cousin can't go t Germany in June! SIANNNN arh! So few pp's gg now! =( Nvm, will try t make the best out of it! Heh heh! See more shuai ge!! Yeah! *lecher lea!*

Went for special service ytd at NP, what the! SO boringg.. The paper stated tt i can leave at 11 wan lea! then wat happened? i left at 2+! so many things t install lo! Other studs in the rm go hm liao n i still need t stay in sch n wait for all those idiotic softwares to load.. Dou yao guai Fujitsu! arghh..

Anyway, lol! met one joker ytd.. he's really funny!! this was wat happened...

Joker: Please type in ur student id here..
Me: Huh.. Why is there an S in front? (i din noe it was supposed t be there!)
Joker: Ohh! cos there's an S in front..

PUKEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Was he even answering t my qn?!!

Oh no, I think i'm in love!

Argh, they went t ice-skate today! and i .... can't go!!!!!!! Actually, i could have just asked my aunt for permission luh but i dunwan.. ha! cos, i can't reach home punctually wan~ :p