Good Days, Great Smiles

I've decided to update as it seems like ages to me since i've last typed any solid words at blogger.com =( and also, hee, i want to fa xie luh.. :P

Dear blogger,
i've not been coping too well in Np eh.. cos, it's been kinda stressful aft comin back from e 2 wks (so short!humphz!!) term break.. sians.. lousy in my practical skills.. hais, in fact lousy in all stuffs luh.. just jia lat in studies, pp take mins to learn a concept, i take days.. it's really sad! pathetic!! well, how abt sports? every human being in the world is bound to have a talent of their own... lols, mentioning it just makes me wanna puke.. i have no talents, nothing to my name, nothing great but everything bad... haix, it's really devastating... but, i would try NOOTTT to give up.. because :
Determination is the key to success! 朱洁怡，你要加油！！

then, recently, on Tuesday to be exact, i was very very upset over my sch work, haiz.. i'm alr v tired aft sch le, my pract so lan, E V E R YBODY in tutorial class completed their work by 4.30 le.. guess how "fast" i took? 1 long hr aft they finished theirs.. i'm really on the verge of bursting to tears le.. i always feel inferior and lousy during practical lessons.. i think the lects and my classmates, and perhaps my closest frens might be thinking.. woah, is kityee an idiot? hello, it's like so simple luh, y do u need ages to understand tt? argh.. buay ta han.. heng, i dun have a brain like hers... a r g h. hais, then okie, i told myself, chookityee, forget it.. go home n complete ur ppt presentation asap and u'll feel better and less stressful le, must jiayo! but, know wat happened? i took one whole afternoon and a whole nite to finish the whole thing.. (i swear i only left my seat for toilet breaks and dinner only..) ok, then the interesting part comes.. aft completing my project and saving it, (and of cos aft closing the ppt window luh), i went back to check if anything was saved.... and.. of cos, u'll know wat i'm gonna say next, rite? NOTHING WAS SAVED!! What the ###################!! then, the next thing i know was, i was drowning myself with tears... hahaa, really funny. i reallly dunno wth happened.. so, wat to do, REDOOOOO luh....... H a i......

aye, i know i shouldn't be thinking so negatively... but, i can't help it, really.. i dunno why am i behaving like this? i believe if u pp were in my plight, u would feel the same.. cos, hais, i can't explain how STUPID i was, in fact, i Am.. cos i'm still stupid now.. sad.. having extremely low IQ really sucks big time, pp look dwn on u, u dun feel good all the time, u take thousands of yrs to finish sth.. everything tt's occuring in ur life just isn't smooth-sailing.. cossss, u are DUMB! u need ur brains for everything, rite? hais, and it doesn't help when i have low EQ as well.. S A DDD...

i must really stop all these shit lorh.. i have low IQ, low EQ. i'm untalented, clumsy, forgetful, grumpy, rude, rebellious, self-centred, fat, ugly, smelly, irritating and shitty. u name it, i have it! and of cos, my negative mindset.... dots... but aye, i only do all these complaining and moaning when i'm in blogger and w my closest frens(ha, poor Puisan, THANKS for listening and comforting me arh, u r soo nice!) luh, so erm, just let me be.. let me rot.. hahs.. i will get over it sn~~ =DDDDDDDDDDDDD

but anyway, i'm glad to say i'm probably the luckiest girl in the world, cos i have the greatest family(muack muack Puiyee chae! i love her! she's the besttt cousin any1 could ever have, i'm serious, this sentence is for real.. and Mama for protecting me from all......EVIL! wahhaa, thanks, u are the best aunt in the whole universe, u reaallyyyy hen haO! jus dun be so naggy luh! haha! :PPPP okok, i know u meant it for me, soo xie xie! and my Papa, still soo xin ku, earn those hard-earned money even when he shd be retiring now.. humphs, PAPA, wo ai ni! i swear i would earnnnnn LOTSS of money and give it to u vvv sn! i'm also saving money now, i will jiayo wan! and Yun chae, woah zai! teach me math, gan dong~ touched! really have to thank her for those hard nights when she sacrificed her slp to teach me, so i wun feel lost n helpless, my knowledge for math is given by her wan.. kam sa ha mi ta!!!!!! and of cos, my kar chae, also sacrificed her slp to listen to all my gossips n entertain me whenever i'm boliao, which is like every single minute! wahhaha, really ah li ka tok! and also, not to be missed, Vivian Keh Hui Toong, this cute xiao mei mei, nobody can replace her positionn.. for nuts wan!! my best SOULmate... n my Quest 5A'06 buddies who rocks big time n of cos my new frens in np who r also nice n sweet pp! I can't imagine how my life would turn out w/o these fabulous pp, i'm really fortunate to know all these pp.. xie xie ni, buddha! haha.. or maybe karma tt i've gained from my past life?! haha! ok, shd end post le.. like v long eh! WOAH, feel sooo much better aft letting it out! i love blogger.com!! jiayo, blogger!!

Love,
ur fan, Guinevere=D